The incredible, amazing adventures of a girl and her two greyhounds living in a small town in the boon-docks of Maine.
8.28.2013
8.21.2013
To Sleep, Perchance to Dream
It’s no news flash that dogs dream. Greyhounds most certainly do. Given the similarity in all racing greyhounds’
upbringing and track experience, it’s not surprising that the nature of their
dreams is also similar in many ways. Blue
has always been a prolific dreamer. I
have written before about his racing dreams.
When he first came to live with me, he had racing dreams once or twice a
day. Now in his dotage his racing dreams
have slowed down a bit. But I always
know when he’s heard the call to post because he starts dream wagging his tail
and then he’s running for all he’s worth, breathing like a true champion
athlete. The pace of the run slows and
then stops. I know if he won the race
(or at least enjoyed it) by whether or not his tail wags at the end.
Blue has several other types of dreams in his
repertoire. I have named them based on
observation, so scientists and haters of anthropomorphism don’t flame me. He has barking dreams, growling dreams and
The Wolf Howl Dream.
Blue’s barking dreams, as best I can tell, are happy
affairs. In consciousness, Blue rarely
makes much noise. He can be incited to
roo on occasion. He has taken to whining
since Bettina joined us and showed him how much fun that can be. And I have watched him bark his fool head off
at a greyhound race he was not taking part in and at a few lure coursing and
straight racing events.
But in his dreams, Blue barks up a veritable storm. He takes in a huge breath of air and then
barks with his mouth closed. It’s almost
the sound equivalent of skipping rocks.
The first bark is the loudest followed by a series of 3-4 more barks
which get consistently smaller and lower in volume. He can sleep bark for a dogs age. Sometimes it degenerates into Blue blowing
air out his mouth and flapping his jowly cheeks. It's like when your shades roll up unexpectedly. Often it is accompanied with some tail
wagging.
His growling dreams are far more sinister. My peace loving, never hurt a fly, goofy big
lug becomes something terribly fierce and scary to behold. In these dreams, he starts by growling with a
closed mouth but it isn’t long before he progresses to snarling, showing all his
teeth and gnashing them. His growls
rumble out of him from deep inside. My
sweet loving boy becomes a vicious wild beast.
I wonder at such times whether this is just the opportunity to step
outside his normal self and get his ferocious on or whether he’s facing some
horrendous thing in his dream and is trying to protect himself. Grammy tells me this dream should be considered proof that he once growled at her. I remain a skeptic.
Blue’s last dream is the one that chills my blood though. I have named this one The Wolf Howl Dream
(and yes, it gets capital letters). But
for a few eye and ear movements, you probably wouldn’t even know he was
dreaming this one. At the end though, he
lets out a long, low howl. It is so
mournful and evokes such feelings of loss and sadness that your heart breaks
just hearing it. Instantly visions of a
lone wolf in deep snowy backwoods country come to mind. It has always made me think of death and
thus, I don’t like it. What scares me
most is that this dream was extremely rare when he was younger. Maybe once or twice a year. In the last year, its frequency has increased
to monthly and in February, he had 2 such dreams.
He always wakes himself up with that howl and he looks
around bewildered. I’m never sure if he’s
bewildered to find himself back in our living room or if he’s bewildered by
who/what made that noise. Was my poor
boy channeling the ancestral wolf in every dog?
Was he facing a vision of his own demise that seems to be getting closer
and closer? Or was he mourning the loss
of something very dear to him? Something
that seems to haunt him more as he grows older.
Mumma will never really know.
With each Wolf Howl Dream I make sure he is fully awake and I rush to
comfort him which is really more mumma trying to comfort herself and shake off
the specter of my silly boy grown old too soon.
8.08.2013
Is It Insanity or Is It a Date?
A dream is a psychosis, with all the absurdities, delusions
and illusions of a psychosis
~Sigmund Freud
~Sigmund Freud
We have forgotten the age-old fact that God speaks chiefly
through dreams and visions
~Carl Jung
~Carl Jung
A dream that is not interpreted is like a letter that is
unread
~Talmud
~Talmud
I had a dream not too long ago. It involved Girly Girl. My dreams involving Girly Girl have a
different quality from my normal dreams and I can count the number of them
since her passing on one hand. I am of
the firm belief that these are infrequent visits from my sweet girl. Some of you may roll your eyes and I’m OK
with that.
Girly Girl usually stops in to say hi, let me know she still
loves me and that she misses me. She
doesn’t “say” this to me but when she was with me in the physical world, she
once gave me a greeting that made it so incredibly clear that she loved me and
missed me it became the gold standard.
It was after her cancer
diagnosis and close to her passing. I had to travel for a week for work so she stayed with Grammy. I think we both knew that time was short and any time away from each other was so painful. When I went to pick her up after that trip, she nearly crawled into my skin in her attempts to get as close to me as possible. Girly Girl, who wasn’t a licker, greeted me like an excited puppy trying to lick my face all over. She stayed melded to me for some time.
diagnosis and close to her passing. I had to travel for a week for work so she stayed with Grammy. I think we both knew that time was short and any time away from each other was so painful. When I went to pick her up after that trip, she nearly crawled into my skin in her attempts to get as close to me as possible. Girly Girl, who wasn’t a licker, greeted me like an excited puppy trying to lick my face all over. She stayed melded to me for some time.
I’ve never had a greeting like that before and now I only
receive it when she drops in on my dreams.
I think she knew how much that particular greeting meant to me so she
uses it now to make sure I am clear on her message.
This dream was different.
It was the first dream in which she did not pop in and give me our
greeting and then pop back out. Instead
I was approached by a person who told me that Girly Girl had “come back.” I didn’t know what that meant and I said that
couldn’t be possible as she was dead.
The person insisted that she was back and I needed to come. Since I would give a whole lot for that to
actually be true, I went with this person.
They brought me to a place where a small group of people
were in the company of a spindly, petite white female greyhound with black
ticking and larger brindle patches. I
told them that this was definitely not Girly Girl. But the group kept insisting that this was
Girly Girl. I approached her and she was
very spooky. She did her best to avoid
being touched. The group helped hold her
still and I checked her ear tattoo. The
birth date ear said 716A. It was at this
point I woke up.
At first, I found the dream just odd. As a few days passed I was sitting in my
mother’s living room discussing the dream with her. I replayed the dream and then out of nowhere I
said to my mother, I think this might mean that Girly Girl is coming back and
when she does, she’ll be in the guise of this new hound.
If the tattoo is any indication, she will be born in July of
2016 so she was apparently giving me plenty of advanced warning. I figure that the earliest she’ll be able to
find her way to me will be in 2017 assuming she fails out of a life as a racing
greyhound and goes straight into adoption.
Grammy thinks it’s possible that she’s timing the return to be just
after Blue’s passing. He will be 14 in
2017.
I know it sounds crazy. And honestly I’m trying to convince her to
stay put where she’s whole and pain free.
Coming back could expose her to any number of terrible experiences. Her last go-round wasn’t particularly fabulous. She broke her hock and it wasn’t
treated. Then she got only a few years
in retirement with a new to greyhounds owner who needed a big lesson in patience. Shortly thereafter she got cancer, had to go through an amputation
only to finally succumb to ever growing tumors in her lungs. Why she’d want to expose herself to that
possibility again is beyond me. I miss her
like crazy but I can wait and meet her on that side if it means she runs free.
So nut job?
Maybe. Creating something I need
to believe from a simple dream? Also
possible. In this case, only time will
tell. Just to be safe I have Auntie
Carol checking all the ear tattoos of the new arrivals that match my
description. I invite you all to check
back in here in 2017 or 2018 to see how this story ends!
Labels:
Dreams,
Girly Girl,
Reincarnation
8.04.2013
5 Sounds That Make My Dogs Come Running
In July I read a post on the blog My Brown Newfies with this
title. Boy if you own a greyhound and you're ever feeling annoyed by the amount of hair your hound sheds or how much space they take up, skip on over to this blog and read about two of the most lovable Newfies in the blogosphere and rejoice that your dogs don't eat as much as these guys do! The post was very funny and
started me thinking about the sounds that make my dogs come running. At the end of the post she invited us to
share so I thought, I will. With all of
you!
So here are the top 5 sounds that make my dogs come running
to investigate (In no particular order):
1. My Closet
Door-They usually hear this sound in the morning and that is how they know for
sure I have
finally stopped hitting snooze on the alarm clock, gotten out of
bed and am preparing myself to face the day.
That also means that very shortly after the sound of the closet door,
they will be getting breakfast.
2. My Shower Curtain-I work at home. So it isn’t always of paramount importance
that I look pretty or smell nice.
Sometimes I don’t shower for a day or two if I’m feeling very lazy. But I always shower before leaving the
house. Being the inveterate gamblers
that Blue and Bettina are, they come running as soon as they hear the shower
curtain open on the good chance it means I’ll be leaving the house. I am under constant surveillance from that
moment until they have finally determined that, yes I am leaving and I am
taking them or no, I’m not leaving after all and I look pretty well ensconced
on that couch.
3. Keys-I would suspect this one is on everyone’s list. For the obvious reason.
4. Fridge Door-Also probably on everyone’s
list. For those same obvious
reasons. For my kids it could mean
string cheese, or yogurt, or a marrow bone, or a frozen peanut butter bone, or ….
5. The Child Gate Guarding the Entrance to the
Basement-This can often times mean that I’m going downstairs to pick out one of
their fancy collars, or some other accessory of torture in which to dress them
up. Why would they care about that? Because the payoff for accepting this
treatment is that we are going out and they are likely to see other people,
other greyhounds, or both. At the very
least it means I have gone out of their sight and that is never
acceptable. They generally stand at the
top of the stairs behind the gate and whine.
If I leave the gate unhooked, Bettina will stick her head through the
gap and stare down into the abyss until it belches me back up.
My kids also get pretty excited about any visitor at the door, the noise the dump trucks make when they pass the house and any move I might make in the vicinity of their food bowls. What makes your kids come running?
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