The incredible, amazing adventures of a girl and her two greyhounds living in a small town in the boon-docks of Maine.
1.14.2015
1.05.2015
The Dying Season
I hate the winter.
For many, many reasons. I hate
snow. I hate to snow blow. I’m not a big fan of cold. It costs a fortune to heat your house through
a long Maine winter. I hate losing the
daylight. But most of all I hate it
because starting in late fall and going through to spring, it is the dying
season.
If anyone or anything is going to leave this world, it seems they most often do so within this window. Facebook
becomes one long memorial news feed. Greyhound
after greyhound after greyhound crosses the bridge. Sure some go at other times of the year, but
at THIS time of year it is an endless parade.
Girly Girl left me during this window.
And yesterday Fox joined her at the bridge. He is another in the long parade that will go
during this
dying season but to us he was special. Fox was Grammy and Charlie’s hound. If ever there was a dog who met the
definition of autistic, it was Fox. He
was stoic and patient. And
stubborn. He wanted to be loved but on
his own terms. You would never consider
Fox a cuddly dog.
Fox is also Blue’s half-brother. They shared the same Dam. They both raced at Raynham in the same
kennel. Fox’s stubborn determination
kept him on the track for quite awhile and he was one of his Dam’s top winning
greyhounds. After he retired he went to
the Maine Greyhound Placement Service and there his stoicism was a
hindrance. Poor Fox lived in the kennel
at MGPS for a year. No one was
connecting with this amazing boy and he kept getting passed by. He had given up hope and even after a special
article was written about him in the MGPS newsletter, he remained in the
kennel.
That is, until Grammy and Charlie happened along looking for
their first greyhound. Once they heard
Fox’s story it did not matter that he was an autistic boy. They determined to give him a real home. There was much happiness in the kennel as
volunteers found out that Fox (whom they all called Foxy) was getting a forever
home.
Fox fit himself into our lives as though he’d always been
there. He wasn’t much for playing with
toys, but if ever there was a greyhound who loved him some dinner, it was
Fox. He lived for meal times and treat
times. As he got older, like most old
greys that I know, he began wearing little bits of his meals on his muzzle and
chin as if he were saving them for later.
Even with his autism, Fox learned to seek out a connection
with the humans in his life. He would
wait patiently in the line of greyhounds seeking attention and then he would
present his side to you, carefully looking away and politely wait for you to
pet him, or scratch him or rub his belly or ears. He would stand there until your hands fell
off if you let him.
Fox had a funny chirp that he would use when he felt you
were not hopping to it quickly enough to get him dinner. It sounded just like a little bird. He would start out almost subsonic and
gradually raise the volume. When he
wanted to go out he would stand and face the front door. It didn’t matter that going out meant using
the sliding glass doors on the back side of the house. When he first arrived at Grammy’s outside was
through the front door and by god, that’s how it would always be for Fox.
Fox never got on any furniture. It terrified him. We used to joke that the best way to persuade
Fox to go lay down if he was bugging you to pet him was to invite him up on the
couch with you. All it took was a quick “come
on buddy, get up here with me,” and he would get the whale eye and start
backing up and looking for an escape route.
Depending on how serious he thought you were he would retreat to his bed
in the living room, or for level 1 threats he would go all the way back to the
bedroom and lay down in there.
As he aged, Fox was afflicted by a mysterious illness which
was autoimmune in nature. He began a
slow slide downward with various times of serious flare up and times of
miraculous recovery. The last diagnosis
we had for him was Alabama Rot. He
suffered through many issues and corresponding
treatments with the patience and
constitution of a block of granite. It
did not matter what you had to do to him.
It did not matter that it sometimes involved a lot of pain. He would always stand and bear whatever had
to be done.
There were a number of times over the past few years where
we were sure that Fox was going to leave us.
That it was time to release him.
But in a couple days he would make a complete turn around and be fine
again. Though each of these episodes
took a toll and he was never quite as good as he had been before. Still, this weekend it was a surprise when
the time where we would have to say our goodbyes finally did present itself.
Grammy and Charlie held off, hoping like crazy for one more
of his miracle turn-arounds but that was not to be. If Fox was in pain, he never let us see
it. But he lost the ability to
stand. Then he didn’t pee for 36 hours
and when he finally did pee, it was because he had lost all control of his
bladder. When the greyhound that lived
for food above all else refused to eat, the time had come.
It was a gut-wrenching decision. His eyes were bright and lively to the
end. His spirit continued to be willing
to go on but his body would not cooperate.
Fox was 12 ½ years old. He had
outlived all of his littermates. He had a good run and by rights lived at least
a year longer than he probably would have if he had been a dog of lesser
determination. But that doesn’t make it
any easier.
We let him go yesterday afternoon with people who loved him
holding him as he went. He went as he
had come and as he lived, with stubborn determination and with love.
Run fast and long Royal Foxglove. Until we meet again.
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